i’ve never really understood the whole "new year" thing, resolutions, fresh starts, new beginnings and all it entails. in the past, the sentiment of january has simply passed me by, same ’ol, same ’ol... but this year seems different.
this past year has been particularly challenging, for me personally, with my health, more work that i can truly handle, kid stuff, and family. but it’s been a pivotal turning point in my life as well. i’ve spent the last year pushing myself to the extreme and, of course, health problems surely follow that lack of respect for one’s self and one’s body.
but it was also a year of letting go of many unhealthy habits and people that deteriorate the person i want to be. i’m a firm believer that the Lord gives us a ton of warnings before he lays down the hammer, and i think the health problems of the past year were a result of my stress and not giving myself any room to breathe...
i must be totally insane.
but at least i have hope!
i’ve discovered this fabulous new thing called “child care”! this is the first year i’ve ever used childcare and, let me tell you, just three hours can buy you a leg-up on your sanity (and your workload)! that means, i can wrap up work before midnight.
i have hope that, despite more impending surgery, i will be as good as new... or maybe like it never even happened. i will learn to balance my work and family life better so the stress won’t have a chance to manifest it’s self again... i will find the time to take more pictures and i will be inspired. i will drink lots of coffee and eat lots of chocolate and not feel a tinge of guilt, ever.
i’m very hopeful for this new year. i like where things are going. and i wouldn’t be here without the previous, crazy, 365 days... or more. i’m not really counting. but that feeling is in the air again, and this year i’m on-board for change.
and... i will post more to the blog. even if no one is reading it. because it’s become a catharsis i didn’t know i really needed. i just hope i find interesting things to post about!
here are a few pictures i took this very morning.
the frost was so beautiful, and, like i said, i’m inspired!
happy new year!
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